Posted at 05:18 PM.

I miss pissing you off. >.<

 

Why can't we just be this easy?

Posted at 06:59 PM.

i come here everyday in hopes that the nagging throb would start to dissipate.
or the people around me would numb it at least.
or take my mind off of it.
it should stop here.

there's always something around to remind me of you.
there's always a song playing somewhere.
a familiar smell. a familiar sight.

i miss the friendship. i miss your sarcasm. i miss you bullying me. i miss hearing you breathe. i miss feeling your heartbeat. i miss ruffling your hair. i miss the prick of your unshaven beard.

i wish to go back.
knowing i never could.
never would.
all i would have is a notebook full of stuff you said.
stuff that makes you real to me.

i want to go back to that water's edge
to hear you break a whole story of a movie you saw.
out of nothingness to say
but with the wanting to stay.

just the lapping water.
the dim lights at a distance.
the moon and the stars as witness.

i loved you then.
i love you still.

 

 

Posted at 01:05 AM.

I've been crying myself to sleep for the nth time now.

The time of the day when all the befores starts playing live an AVP of my life plays in all its vivid glory in my head. Along with the stabbing pain. And when the sleep settles in, I still see you. I still dream of you. And I dread waking up each day because I have to face the fact that you're not in my life anymore. That you left me out of yours.

I miss you.
Every single fucking day.